Last Saturday was one year since Emelyn's ultrasound/diagnosis - the day our world came crashing down and we were both rushed in for an emergency procedure. Now it feels like every day is another milestone/memory of where we were exactly one year ago.
And it has now been just over 8 months since we last held our precious Em, I can't believe that my Emelyn would be 8 months old already! It seems like FOREVER since I held her in my arms but an eight month old?! WOW!
Anna and I both had the stomach flu this last week, and with all of the emotions already from all of the anniversaries, plus the morning sickness I was already dealing with, it made for a HARD few days - not to mention having Justin all the way across the country too! I ended up going to the ER and being treated for dehydration and a UTI. They gave me some medicine which I had an allergic reaction to and the ambulance had to come to our house! My tongue was so swollen I couldn't keep it in my mouth or talk, it was quite scary and embarrassing too. And through it all, Anna was completely oblivious, she was just excited to have "visitors" and to see the lights on the trucks.
We DID get to see our new little one for the first time at the hospital on the anniversary of Emelyn's "diagnosis ultrasound" which was really neat and unexpected - it made for one emotional mommy! And then we had our first doctor appointment just a few days later. Baby is measuring a few days small which could just be because I ovulated a little late but the heart beat was good and strong at 162bpm and baby even bounced around a little for us. Doctor Pier says that everything looks normal, he will be seeing me for the duration of the pregnancy. He even gave me his cell phone number in case I need anything between our appointments.
It has definitely been WAY more emotional than I had expected going through another pregnancy, especially right in the middle of all of the milestones that we are reaching with Emelyn. I do not feel at all like this baby is, in any way, a replacement for my precious Em but it is difficult to go through a new pregnancy without being bombarded with memories of emotions I felt when I was going through all of this with her. I am definitely more nervous this time around but I am excited that our first anatomy scan is in just a little over 5 weeks, it gives me something to look forward to and, hopefully, an endpoint to at least some of my nerves. Five weeks feels like an eternity but I know it will be here before we know it. At this point, it feels like it can't come fast enough. I can't wait to be able to hear and share the words "healthy baby!"
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me."
-Philippians 4:13
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